towards the end, the grass gets less green

in my room there's a calendar i drew up to help me keep track of the number of days before the major exams hit. the A levels are too close for comfort, of course, like any responsible jc2 student recognizes. yep, they're gonna hit hard on you soon enough: its inevitable.

but what i also realise, too, only recently, is that along with the days towards the A levels goes the number of effective days i can spend with the entire ip4 cohort. is separation inevitable, too? and if so, would it hurt? how will it be like when there no longer exist common lectures and tutorials in the place we call NJC?

there is major cause for concern here, dude. after december this year, the guys are going into the army, while the girls are going to be scattered so broadly around the world the only thing that can beat them at spreading, i would suspect, would be the H5N1 virus among chickens. (not among humans, hopefully.) everyone wants to live the american dream, no, the study abroad in some place ive never been to before, meet all kinds of people dream. prove me wrong, but i somehow always get the feeling that most who take SATs will sail away to the distant lands of America in search of new adventures, like [drumroll] Indiana Jones and the University of Some American State!

which brings us to the stale old axiom of the grass being greener on the other side. do you seriously think it'd be a fantasy over at the US? or the UK? wow, im gonna enjoy a lot more freedom there! wow, im gonna meet people ive never met before, especially the white kids you see on tv! and wow wow wow kylie minogue that woman with the wow song (its retardedly awful to the ear) actually lives in the US! the creators of WOW (world of warcraft) are there too! but did you also realise that with a free society nobody's gonna hold back and not point fingers at you labelling you as a stereotypical asian who knows jackie chan, kungfu, wields nunchucks, has ninjas as bodyguards, and is also short, dim-witted, incompetent and downright stupid? i seriously think this whole going overseas to complete your education thing is overrated. perhaps im too xenophobic at that. but anyway, while i acknowledge that the best rated universities are in fact in the western countries, i still hold fast to the notion that the west isnt much better than here at home.

coming back to the original point, im sure you know how it is to feel left behind. or left alone, for that matter. its exactly what i foresee in less than a years' time. can it be helped? i guess there's no way to hold everyone back for another 4 years at njcip, because, first, everyone's so sick of the school already, and second, we've got to grow.

then what's the issue here?

yeah, what's the issue here?

if everyone's acknowledged who their best buddies are, who they're gonna keep in contact after the ip course, what's the problem with leaving the people they've probably never interacted with for 4 years?

yeah, so there's no issue at all.

no, but there is.